What is Tamarah's Closet?

Many years ago, I was dreaming of my next dream home.  In my head I was designing it, and dreamed of having one of those big walk in closets I had seen in a movie.   For years, in my different homes, I had never had a walk in closet, not really anyway.  I lived in an old home that had tiny closets, and then one day, when I was married and built my first dream home, we had a walk in closet, but it still wasn’t that big.

Years later in another marriage, I lived in an old home, and we turned an extra room, which was probably, intended for a den, into a big closet.   Like all the closets, I have had in my life, my closets had more than just clothes.  They had always been a collector of things; a storage place of remnants of all my passions.   You could find lots of things in my closet;  Old jewelry boxes, horse shoe ribbons, boxes with my horse show items like my riding hats and helmets, weights, books, hats, stuffed animals, boxes of photos, my guns, journals, and memorabilia and anything else I didn’t have a place for. 

While I was sitting in this room/closet I had made, I was sitting at my vanity thinking of starting a blog.  The blog was going to be about my passions; fashion, horses, dogs, and makeup.  As I was looking around at all the things in my big closet, I realized that my closet was nothing more than all my passions. I decided to call my blog “Tamarah’s Closet.”

I even staged this photo above in my newly made closet.  I had a little cheap camera that I place on a ladder.   I wore the feminine shirt to show my femininity and passion for glamour, and the jeans to show my passion for horses & I live in blue jeans, the red shoes, because I love heels (even though I don't wear then much, hence the sneakers nearby) and the weight in my hand because I love to work out, and the gun is my symbol for "New Sheriff in town," and I love to target practice, and the Warren Buffet book because I love to read, and my dream is to create wealth for Tamarah's Closet so I can help many more, and starting all my new ideas.   Everything has a purpose and there is a purpose for everything I do!

Me showing my National Show Horse Imminent Reflections, winning Reserve Champion at East Coast Championships 2000

The ideas started pouring in over the next few months.   I started blogging and making little inspirational videos.   There was something missing, however.   I wanted it to mean more than that.   While I was passionate about fashion, after being in the beauty industry for most of my adult life, I wasn't  feeling fulfilled.  It just wasn’t enough. My heart and my gut told me there was more.   I knew there had to be a bigger purpose for me.  After three failed marriages, I believed there had to be more in me that I could give back.  The more I wrote, the more I realized I had the gift to write.   I started writing more inspirational posts.   I never really saw my past as a failure, even my marriages.   I learned so much from each marriage and each relationship.  My past is what got me to where and who I am, today!

Me showing my Arabian Gelding "Dancing Eagle" at halter at the Arabian Nationals in Kentucky

There had been good in each of my marriages, and they were full of lessons.  Relationships take two, and I was always aware of the part I had to play in each of them.  I knew what I could have done different, and I didn’t really regret any of them.  I, in fact, took too much of the blame, after spending time with a counselor.  She helped me see that it takes two, and that I had to start forgiving myself, in order to begin to heal.  I had to realize that my partners had their part and their blame as well. 

Once I begin the process of not blaming myself, I began to heal.   I began writing about my lessons and lessons I learned from other people sharing their experiences.   I wanted to give hope to those who have lost hope as I had.   Hope is powerful and can be the greatest healer that keeps us getting up each day.   Hope is what makes me smile! 

Photo Credit:  Mac Moss

As I got better at writing, I dreamed of Tamarah’s Closet going from a blog, to a magazine.  For the purpose of my blog, I did an interview with an artist in South Africa that I had found on Facebook.  I was going to put this in my blog.  At that moment, I hadn’t thought much about turning it into an ongoing show, until after the interview was over.     I surprised myself, and couldn’t believe how natural it felt, and how good it felt to celebrate this woman, Charlien Muller.   She was a delight to interview and I felt so good about helping this woman!   I had no idea I had this gift or talent, and so I booked another one.   The Show came before the magazine, and that's another chapter to look forward to soon!

LIVE INTERVIEW with Actor David Cubitt from NBC'S "Medium" with Patricia Arquette

I just knew, that this was the beginning of something grand!  This was my calling and a big part of my purpose.  I wanted to help people with their dreams!   I had spent years watching a show that was about interviewing celebrated people.  It was a 2-hour long show, and I remember how I loved hearing about how people got started, and hearing their road wasn’t easy.    What I didn’t like, was that all of the interviews we see, on talk shows, etc. are with people who were already celebrated.  I thought to myself, "How does anyone keep going forward and see themselves that far ahead, when all they see celebrated is the already celebrated."  I wanted to bridge that gap! 

Me showing my Arabian Gelding "Dancing Eagle"  in Lexington, Virginia, winning TOP FIVE at Region XV

I wanted to interview people at all different levels on their journey, and celebrate them like the stars they are deep inside.   I wanted to make them feel famous, before they were famous!  Tamarah’s Closet began!   I also celebrate people who are already successful and celebrated to keep the viewers coming and to mostly give hope to my guests who weren’t quite there yet.  

I had, and still have, such big dreams, all my life!  I never had anyone that supported and lifted me.   I know my parents loved me, but they didn’t understand my big dreams.  When I started Tamarah’s Closet, I wanted to be the person who, I wish I had when I was younger.  I wanted to help people get more exposure and make them feel like a super star!

LIVE INTERVIEW with Neurosurgeion Dr. Stephen B. Tatter from Wake Forest Baptist Health Hospital

I’ve always had a gift of recognizing greatness in people, even when they don’t recognize it themselves.  It saddens me when I see greatness in someone, and they themselves, don’t see it.  I can only do, what I can do, and the rest is left up to them.  I give it my all and that’s all I can do!

I am an eclectic and so is Tamarah’s Closet.   My heart has been given to many different types of people; friends, or a lover, and different opportunities.   I enjoy so many different hobbies and interests in life.  I love engaging in all things creative.  I learned I have so many talents I never knew I had, and I wanted to celebrate all the different genres of artists and their many talents.    My parents introduced me to music, taking piano & flute lessons, and then I took 11 years of ballet and tap, and then pointe.   I wanted to do my show, on a large scale.  I love people and I hate the disconnect sometimes, which I see in the world, and the hate that goes on, and I wanted to bring the world together. 

My little Superstar agility Shih Tzu Turk & me at an agility Trial  | Phyllis Ensley Photography

 I live in America, which is the greatest country in the world.  I know it, and yet I wish others would realize it.   I decided to interview people from all over the world, and hopefully bring them together and give people in other countries, a chance of exposure in this great country of America.   I interview people in all races, and all religions, and I don’t care about their politics.  I care about their talent and I care about giving them my best, so they can have their best chance with their dreams.   I learned many years ago from Zig Ziglar, "You can have anything in your life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want."   I thought this was a beautiful way to live my life.

There you have it!  Tamarah’s Closet has begun and it is going to keep growing and getting better.  I have many plans for Tamarah’s Closet and most of them will continue to help people, get the exposure they deserve; for my old guests and the new ones to come.  I can’t share my plans yet, as I keep my ideas safe until I have a solid foundation in my heart to get them started. 

I've been blessed with an amazing life so far.   Although my journey has been a very tough one with many tragedies, I am still standing and I am now on my new chapter;  "The Best is Yet to Come!"  I am enjoying all the new opportunities Tamarah's Closet is bringing me and I am very blessed! 

I've had money and I've lost money, and I've had love and lost love.  I know that the most important part of my journey, is to have that special love to share my beautiful journey with.  Patience is a virtue, and my life is just beginning!

Family self-portrait

Stay tuned for more of Tamarah’s Closet LIVE INTERVIEWS, and all great things to come!!!  Please enjoy my interview replays and please share them, so that I can keep them getting the exposure they deserve.

Enjoy your life and your dreams!

Tamarah Ellen