The Meanest of Times

If someone had told me a couple of years ago that I would be soon living in one of the “meanest” times of my life, I would have never believed it.   I am glad I didn’t know what I know now, for it would have been hard to believe and hard to anticipate.

I woke up this morning early with an overwhelming sadness upon me.  It enveloped me like a wet, cold blanket.   I woke up with feelings of hopelessness and seeing no end in sight.   It truly frightened me.  While many live-in fear of a virus that the CDC says has a 99.8 % survival rate, I live in fear of losing my freedom and any semblance of humanity around me.  (Animals act better.)

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For the past 16 months, I have witnessed such meanness in people I had only read about or seen in movies.   Instead of coming together and being loving and compassionate, the world quickly turned to hate and judgment.  I have watched friendships break up and families divide, even my own.    I have had people whom I thought were friends shame me for not thinking like them.   I guess the friendship wasn't real after all.   It is a sad time we are living in, and I still pray we recover.

 While the politicians and news media stir the pot, it is the responsibility of the people in this world as to how we choose to react and behave.   I thought there was more humanity than what I have seen.   And I do not believe it is about fear any longer, but about politics and politics alone.   I think that people have chosen to be stubborn, unloving, uncompassionate, and far more concerned with being right.  

There is no tolerance from anyone to meet in the middle.  For all of 2020 and now eight months into 2021, I have felt like I was in the twilight zone or some lousy horror film with bad actors and no mercy.  Where did we go wrong?  

 This morning I wanted to cry, and the tears just would not come. I feared praying for tears, for that something worse would happen to bring me those tears.   I decided to get up and move on with my day.   I managed to get myself to a nature walk with my dogs, which cheered me up, seeing the beautiful wildlife.  I thought if only people could behave more like animals, with respect and oblivious to the harsh goings-on in the world.

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It is no wonder I feel happiest with my animals.   There is no hate, no competition, no threats, no questions of whether I am being lied to or not, and no false promises.  There is only sweet unconditional love bestowed upon me when I am with my furry kids. 

I quickly pulled myself together and remembered my promise that I would never let anyone steal my joy from me.  I am venturing into one of the most exciting times of my life and love everything I am doing right now.   I also enjoy the freedom that America has always given me to do all these things.   Freedom is the other thing that I will never let anyone steal from me.   Freedom is the one thing that is worth fighting and dying for.

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While I don’t see many people willing to change, I decided a long time ago to work harder on myself than anything else and be the one to change and be the leader the world needs.   We lead by example, and I hope whoever is reading this will join me in this fight for peace and the fight to keep our freedom in this country.   We start by softening our hearts and focusing on what we have control over, which is changing ourselves.   It does not mean we have to give in to a government take-over either.   We must fight when it comes down to it, but in the meantime create as much peace as we can to unify and meet others halfway, realizing we are all different and have different viewpoints.  

Many will never give in to their quest to be right and those are the ones we must ignore. Their intolerance of anything other than their own ideas is all they will care for, so walk away and leave them to their consequences.   Be the better person, take the high road and focus on the good people in this world who care about the country and care about our freedom.   That is all that matters at the end of the day.

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Don’t let anyone steal your dreams, your joy, or your freedom.  The meanness in the world will pass.  I keep saying to myself, “This too shall pass,” and I hope it does sooner than later. 

My heart can’t take much more of this self-righteous world and some of the people in it.   Be the better person.  Be a person of change and don’t give in to the political propaganda or the news media.  They have never truly cared about the American people, for if they did, they would report the truth. 

God speed and begin your own personal change.   Let friends walk away, for if they were true to you, your differences would not matter.  I will keep pushing forward with what hope I have left, and I will continue to fight for freedom and pursue my own dreams as well as celebrate others on Tamarah's Closet Live Interviews.

To your own success, keep rocking it!

Tamarah Ellen